No Better, No Worse

My name is Brianna, the owner and operater here at camp hope...

LOL

So apparently we are going to start trying to have a baby.

From 192 last August, 146 now. Currently 14.9%body fat.

Strength is the goal.
I want to be able to kick holes in doors,
Climb mountains,
And carry the world on my back If I have to.
Still have areas to work on, but that’s always.
Works in progress, thankfully, we eternally are.

Back home again.
Every time I go somewhere and return I am always super glad to be home.
And I still am, but I feel like I’ve left a piece of myself there.

Someone told me today to eat a cheeseburger because I was too thin.
I don’t see it, but I do have a distorted view of my body, and have struggled with ed.
My boyfriend knows this, and supports my endeavors to work on things I am unhappy about with my body, but every time he is around me he makes sure I eat well. If I mention a craving, he practically makes me eat it then praises me for doing it.
I think he knows I still struggle more than I let on, and I appreciate more than he could ever know making sure I’m healthy without attacking me about it.
He is truly a best friend.

Thank you!!! 
That made me smile :)
I’m always so anxious about my body but I’m making great strides in being okay with me.

jadehorns

Thank you!!!
That made me smile :)
I’m always so anxious about my body but I’m making great strides in being okay with me.

jadehorns

So I bought a suit very similar to the black one and I actually wore it in public.
Big step for me!
I even tried to look cute in a picture poolside but that was a fail lol. I ended up with epic sunface.
Spent the whole weekend with my daughter at My boyfriends house. Its been amazing.
Although I did get a little ruffled by his sleepiness, which I often make fun of and call him an old man…
Well now I feel horrible about it.
I found a bottle of medication he takes everyday. I googled it.
And one of the side effects is fatigue.
:(
Always try to understand before you get mad is the point I’m making I guess. Guilty as charged, but now I have a new empathy.