HALP IVE BEEN LAUGHING AT THIS FOR TEN YEARSSS
So I haven’t been on for awhile! Life has been full lately.
Going through this divorce process is wayyyy more than I ever anticipated mentally.
Not to mention I have been working my butt off trying to make enough money for bills, my December daughter’s birthday and Christmas and a Disney trip. All on my own.
I also have been working on settling in life, focusing on what is.important, and not letting myself be distracted by trying to fill the void in my life with boys.
Yes boys, not men, I say that with the utmost bitterness, no.offense to anyone out there who is a real, honest, woman respecting man, who doesn’t treat you like some tin man toy, picking you up and playing with you when he wants you, and oiling your joints with just enough broken promises and empty sweet nothings to keep you working, keeping your damaged and needy heart just coming back for more. From the ex husband to every guy who has tried to date me, all just in it… I can’t just say for one thing, because I don’t even know if that’s it. Or if it’s just some sick deep seeded need to feel control over someone.
Just pushy. Pushy to make you do what they want.
Its been a month since I’ve been touched and right now I don’t even miss it. The thought of some guy putting his hands all over me makes me want to gag. The memories I have when I actually enjoyed it makes me shudder.
I have officially gone cold and I feel better about it this way because I don’t want it anymore.